My Story

About two years ago we lost our house among other things. At that point I got all uber depressed and stuff. I hated life, myself, and barely believed in God. Soon I wanted to kill myself and spent most of my waking life wishing for the strength to do it, after all, Heaven is supposed to be a better place right? I clearly remember at least one time I almost took my life. I was holding a knife all alone, but somehow I didn’t do it. I was so lost, so I turned to books to be my escape. That was a very bad idea. I started to prefer the fantasy world of the real one. All of my waking moments were spent wishing I had magical powers and other nonsense. At the time I didn’t understand why I desired the supernatural, but now I realize that it was a hunger to feel the power of God flow through me. Don’t get me wrong, during this time I sometimes felt the LORD. Heck, I even prophecied, but any spiritual highs I had were quickly snuffed out. I started to get even further into it. For a while I kept promising myself “today will be the day I start cutting myself,” but thankfully it never happened. Every morning I would wake up and stare at myself in the mirror. What I saw looking back at me was a broken and bitter treasure, but instead of love all he gave was hate. I told myself I hated myself, and wanted me to die. I hungered for God but didn’t understand just how much I needed him.

Then God stepped in. I had always wanted to go on a mission trip, and I found my chance! I went to Northern Ireland with Teen Missions Int’l ( an AWESOME organization that totally changed my life. I made some amazing friends who were absolutely on fire for the LORD, and God healed my heart. When I got home I felt like a completely different person, I stopped some things in my life that kept me from God and kept on reading his Word and praying. I found new and awesome friends who challenge me to grow in my faith.

That’s pretty much my story, and now I do everything I can to glorify God and live for him. He has saved me, changed my life, and done so much more I couldn’t write all about the times. Oh, and before I forget, he wants to do this for you too! Just ask him!


I’m pressed but not crushed, persecuted not abandoned. Struck down but not destroyed!

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